
so, its is 10:30 pm, you are lying in your bed tossing and turning around . you sleep early because your overthinking session about each and every detail in the nook and corner of your day starts as soon as you hit your damn bed. You just can’t sleep its just impossible because without the overthinking happening and the analysis you just cant complete your day .
so you play conversations you had months ago with someone, you had said something firm may be standing up for yourself but then months later you’re replaying it again because you’re a classic over-thinker. you replay that conversation just because you thought maybe you’ve upset the guy. you think maybe you messed up or maybe u broke a part of something. you also might have talked it out just in case you know and so did it get cleared as well but you’re not convinced because the vibe was not trustable. Oh yes, vibes are a big thing that you trust by the way. he also texted back cleared and said: “I get it 🙂 “. But he never uses that emoticon. you start over-thinking again all over again.
vibes have always been a big thing for you, if you wake up and get the same that same damned vibe that you got a few days back and there was a mishap, you are convinced that the fuckening of the day might come real quick. so you get out of your bed and start replaying things which you did wrong in the last few days. classic.
well, some classic over-thinkers might agree they have this thing in them. They get overwhelmed, over-love, over-feel, well they become really sensitive, I’m calling sensitive because majorities just address this as being a cry baby. You stay in toxic relationships or shitty friendships just because you think walking away would hurt them, hence you just start sticking around and there is no decluttering. But trust me when I say this decluttering is important regardless of the fact that it might hurt them or not it is their life they’ll figure It. But also it is your life that you need to figure. You also have lived up so many imaginary scenarios which you think is absolutely normal, honestly so many scenarios that a novel could be composed out of that. You might also relate that you stare at your phone before dialling someone thinking am I bothering them, am I being too nosy or over the top. you type a text then backspace, type again then backspace, type again and backspace. Your heart starts racing when you think before picking up a stranger’s call. classic again.
well now it is 3:30 am, the thing with 10:30 pm is that it comes just a minute before 3:30 am if you are not careful haha. what started with thinking about a text message got into apologising and the worst-case scenarios and lots of shower thoughts and ended up with severe life questions.
You are still restless and tossing in your bed . The worst part of overthinking is that it gets dismissed with people just saying that:” God, you think too much, gimme a fuckin break.” And end up just giving you relentless advice on how to stop overthinking and one of the most stupidest advice. You just hope they knew that over-thinking is just not a car that you can pull a break to , its a break less cycle which if you take up a hill to stop it you might trip.
Anyway its 4:00 am now and I guess you should get some sleep and rest up, cause you gotta overthink again tomorrow.

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