Outfelt- you would know!

you feel way too much!

You are sensitive.

I want you to know that its okay to feel that way. You end up doing things for your friends because you think ” they will feel bad” .you just can not never ever say no to anyone even if you have to jump your boundaries for that.you notice little changes in someone’s behaviour. you feel everything so deeply. its a blessing and a curse.

you know your friend did not mean the joke that was aimed at you. you know they like you. but you get hurt, sometimes. and you suck at expressing how you feel. so you just let out a feeble smile.in those moments, you just want to disappear.

when you are a sensitive person, you end up thinking a lot about how others would feel. you keep putting yourself in their shoes. you try to be a nice person . you get kind with everyone , even with the people who dont deserve shit like that but you still be kind to everyone and tell others to do the same as well because you know what an unkind behaviour can do , cause you might have been through that and you dont wanna see people suffer. and sometimes being the good and nice person takes a toll on you and you end up doing things that you don’t want . just because of that one reason “that will feel bad no.”

well, you hide your pain well but you have cried during movies. and sometimes you just avoid listening to certain songs or watching certain movies.simply because you hit too close to home.

but all of this has an advantage that you empathise well with people . you actually understand what they are going to . you actually feel their trouble. it makes you a great friend . and you always try to br there for people.sometimes, it gets overwhelmimg you need an off swutch. sometimes you need some fuckening to stop. sometimes your brain screams at you to cut yourself some slack.you can guess people’s mood simply by the way they are talking , and also you can guess my someones way of texting if they are feeling low, being ignorant , falling apart or are just busy. and you want to help them .it really bothers you when you’re close friends are feeling low.you try to do everything in your capacity to fix it . and this becomes emotionally draining for you.

you cant be on bad terms with anyone if something goes wrong it keeps bothering you in your head. you feel the need to solve the situation .you cant concentrate on anything until they are at peace with you. and in sloving problems of everybody you forget you have your own shit to take care of and no one is gonna fix you. and in this mess u loose yourself.

honestly what they say is true – feeling everything too strongly and deeply is a curse and a blessing at the same time . you have made peace with it and its okay.but i want you to know that it is not your job to “fix” the world. you heal everyone but who heals you?

please relax and take care of yourself. in this world , surviving and living with a fragile heart is extremely difficult. people take advantage of you . you need to love yourself before you love others. you need to build a wall around that heart.

with love,

someone like you.